It’s time for a list. I’ve been back from Costa Rica for over a month now, and as I’ve been navigating this particularly difficult time, I’ve been really learning a lot about saying goodbye, saying hello again, and all the emotions and frustrations that are such a big part of the re-entry experience. Here are a few of the things I’ve gathered over the last month or two, which are good advice for life in general, but specifically for other missionaries and their loved ones at home.
To the returning traveller:
- When you say goodbye, do it right. Saying goodbye at the end of my year was one of the most painful things I’ve ever experienced, but one of the most special. Be extravagant, be lavish with your goodbyes. Give hugs and gifts and serenades, throw parties and cry lots and lots and lots, and share kind words and write letters and take lots of pictures. Do it well because it’s the part you’ll remember the clearest and longest.
- Traveller, be patient with your family. It’s been a struggle for both parties, and things might be awkward for a while. You might not know what to say, which questions to ask, or how to answer. Give a little grace.
- Re-entry is re-entry, no matter how small. Whether you were gone a week or a year or ten years, re-entry is a process and it will take time. Be patient if you don’t just fit right back in where you left off. You’ll get there. And “there” might look a bit different than you’d expected, but that’s okay.
- Unpacking a year of your life is freaking hard. It took me a whole month to get the stinking suitcase out of my bedroom. Even if you’re not a sentimental person, it’s hard.
- Everything will be different. You’ll feel like while you were gone, everyone turned your world upside down without your permission. And they did. But that’s okay and normal. Just remember that you’ll be different too, so while you’re sitting there bug-eyed and hyperventilating because everything is so different, remember that your family and friends probably feel the same way about you.
- It’s okay to cry yourself to sleep sometimes. Let it happen when it needs to.
- Be more thankful. Take time to appreciate every person who made your mission possible, from the prayers to the finances and everything else. Love on some people.
- It’s okay to rest. That’s my biggest struggle right now, because I’m not in school yet, I’m still trying to work out the job situation, and I feel like a lazy bum. Mum keeps reminding me to enjoy this rest time, but it’s driving me insane and I feel so empty without places to go and a tight schedule like I used to have. She keeps telling me, “it’s okay to rest.” So while I struggle to take that advice, let me pass it on to you.
To the friends and family back home:
- Family, be patient with your newly-arrived missionary. See above.
- Don’t tell me you “know exactly how I feel.” You don’t, I promise. Even if you had the same experience as me, for the same length of time and everything, each person handles it differently. Thanks for trying to understand, but you can’t. And that’s okay.
- “How was your trip?” is the very hardest question to answer. Because it wasn’t a trip. It was a year of my life. I moved myself and my life to Costa Rica, and then I moved it all back. When you ask me how my trip was, the only thing I know how to say is, “it was great.” So if that’s the answer you’re looking for, ask away.
- Know that you’re appreciated. Even when I don’t give you the thanks that you deserve, know that you mean the world to me and my heart is immensely grateful.
- Let me revel in my tan while it lasts! Even though my very darkest tan is about equal in tone to your winter pallor, just smile and nod and let me enjoy it (if you want extra brownie points, you can even make an unforeseen remark about how sun-kissed I look). 😉
So that’s all I’ve got for now. I’ve been gathering this list for a good while, and decided it’s finally time to write it down and share it. Maybe nobody will really care, but my hope is that this advice makes the transition just a little bit easier for one person that reads it.
In other news, FIVE DAYS TILL UGANDA, GUYS!